'Serpents' in my mind

Up since 230.
'Serpents' playing in my mind, I lay in the3 darkness and I couldn't understand why, why that song?
I had two things on my mind: times I had spent wondering how I was going to survive while my unemployment funds might arrive, and, how I had spent my inheritance in pursuit of a dream to become a rockstar and failed to even learn guitar -- and yet, write one 300,000+ word novel and get half-through a second one while I waited to hear an answer.

I got up, read the lyrics to the song and wondered what part of them made me think they somehow applied to my current situation; i couldn't find.

I re-read the reason Sharon had written them and -- no, that wasn't it

I read Marissa Nadler's explanation of what, I Can't Listen to Gene Clark Anymore, was about, and how she was thrilled to work with van Etten on the song -- hmm, not that either...

Went upstairs and found two 5 lb weights on the dining room table; I'd had access to weights at my sister's house and would use them at least three times a week in a routine to keep my arms buffed, even when I was half-starved saving half my paycheck towards moving out of her house to here; saved $1500 that way and still survived a lung infection, much less my fall injury.
When I felt like I was going to die walking up Fort Hill after an 8 hour shift, laden with my backpack, I had to start taking Lyfts home...  LoL, good times; wish I had a job now.

So I wert outside and did a short set with the weights and took in the violet-magenta cold of spring morning, and just stopped thinking.  Just breathed and counted and worked my arms -- arms I'd hoped would be used in pleasuring a songstress I'd fallen head over heels for...  Ha, so stupid!

I'm stronger than I've got sense, it seems.