Something strange happened to me the other day:

I'd thought back to 'S' and how one day when we were together, Soundgarden's, Black Hole Sun, was playing and I felt really gross about what we were doing, and how I had stopped him and got up and had to clear my head of whatever anxiety was forcing itself to my attention.

But then, as I looked up the lyrics, the weird part hit me -- the song hadn't been released then, in fact, wouldn't be released for nearly a decade.

As that set in, I thought about who I was with when BHS was on the radio, -- E, my ex.